Don't be Ashamed of Your Story, It May Inspire Others
I used this post several days ago, as I was just about to hit the post button, a thought struck me that I need to expand on those few words.
For a very long time, I was ashamed of my past, actually embarrassed by it, so much so that I could not even talk about my home life to anyone. I felt that I was the cause for what occurred in my childhood.
Due to the drama occurring at home, I hid behind a mask, and lost who I was at a very young age. My childhood left me with emotional scars which I mostly kept buried, subconsciously, or so I thought, believing everything will be ok if I put that trauma in a space “back there in the subconscious” and get on with life. Getting on with my life I did to an extent, not realising by burying my emotional state, I was not facing my fears and not living to my full potential. I was too young to understand that the adults were supposed to be there to nurture me, to make me feel safe. I took the role on in carrying the burden/blame for others wrong goings heavily upon my young shoulders.
From a very young age I took on the role on as a people pleaser, thinking “I will do this for you, then you will be pleased, and think I am a good girl”
Unfortunately that did not happen, then: I started to believe that I was always a bad girl no matter what I did or didn’t do, it is all your fault (for what I do not know).
It was not until I wrote my story – The Burnt Child did I realise there was nothing for me to be ashamed of or be embarrassed by, for I was the victim not the perpetrator.
When you are very young as I was, it is easy to take on the feeling that you were responsible and ashamed for your hurt and everyone else’s, you do it automatically to protect yourself, you are just too young to understand that is not the case.
You feel ashamed, you are embarrassed by it.
Release the shame and negative energy.
The process of writing the “Burnt Child”: has released the shame, and all negative aspects around of what my thoughts were from a very young age.
Know that if you find yourself in a situation similar to mine, remember, don’t hide your truth from yourself and others, as your story is valuable, and know that you are not to blame for your past hurts, nor should you be ashamed of what occurred to you.
We all have a “story” to tell, some of it good and some not so good but, we all do have life experiences that shape us who we are today.
You are a unique being, embrace who you are, and that includes embracing “your story”.
Your story is more powerful that you realise, by telling your story to others as I have, you will inspire others.
Sure it may be uncomfortable at first, telling your story openly and truthfully can assist you greatly in your healing, and also your story can assist others in theirs.